Update & thoughts
How are thing over here? Slow. That is the best word to describe how I’m doing. I’m moving slow. Each day I feel like things improve a little bit. It still hurts more than I’d like. I’m uncomfortable. I’m bored. I have to do a lot of sitting around. I can’t reach things I’d like, I can’t fix food for myself because I don’t have the ability to and I’m feeling really out of control. Now that last part I think the whole world might be feeling. This whole pandemic has been filling Facebook and the news, which is my outlet right now to what is going on outside my walls. It’s scary and confusing. Remember I’m a firm believer that God has a plan. I also believe that us planning is good, we’ve talked about that. We have toilet paper, and food and soap so I’ve planned well for now...
But I’m having conversations with my kids that hurt my heart. I have a senior in high school and this year has been hard for her. She keeps having to deal with real big deal issues and it seems to over shadow anything senior related. School just got cancelled for an extra week and a day, she is taking college courses and they are going to online it seems until the end of the semester. Her favorite youth convention had to be postponed. All of these things I understand, and even appreciate to keep her and everyone else safe - especially in my current state but everything keeps changing... all the time. And boy is it hard to keep saying... I’m sorry and I wish there was something I could do for her. She is taking it all in stride and keeps saying she is fine. But I still think it’s hard!
Over here in our house we are learning a lot about trust, and walking by faith and being flexible with plans and changes. We are all having to choose to find the joy in daily life because at times it’s hard. We are having to be patient and kind to each other. And we are having to realize that we live in a crazy world but I’m so thankful that I have hope in an eternity with a God that is bigger than all of this.
Last thing, we go tomorrow for a check up at the doctors office (not sure that is the place I want to be right now) but it’s where we are going. Pray that all goes well, and that they will remove some (if not all) of my tubes because I’m over them!!!
Hope you are all hanging in there! Stay safe!
