Been awhile...

It’s been awhile since I’ve updated. At first it was because everything was going well and I didn’t think about it much. Now, I’ve been dealing with some new side effects and I’m just hoping they get better. I’ve been out of radiation for well over a month. My skin has healed nicely. But I have been having some digestive issues and some exhaustion. It’s new and annoying. I feel like after everything I’ve gone through this should be the sweet spot. The spot where my body is healing and I’m getting back to normal. But instead I’m dealing with new things and just trying to make sure I’m taking care of myself to the best of my ability everyday. Which is hard! I’m tired. I’m tired of feeling sick. I know that sounds whiny and the last thing I want to be is whiny because I’m also so thankful and blessed and appreciative of where I’ve come from but man I just find myself praying for a peaceful season. I know that each trial I go though is strengthen me and it’s like the refining fire that is good but painful. I’m looking for joy in the mist of the trial and keeping my eyes focused. Learning to listen to my body and resting. Learning to treasure the early morning hours when I can’t sleep and spend time praying or reading my bible. I’m trying. And that at the end of the day is all any of us can do. Keep going and pushing through. 

I should also add, the doctors aren’t worried. They think this is just me dealing with all that has happened. We have meds that are helping and time is our friend at this point. Healing is a process. 

Thanks for continuing to lift us up in prayer. Thanks for thinking of us!